Chloe's first bottle of formula

Technically, this isn't her first bottle of formula since she had some formula when we put her in the nursery at the hospital (without us knowing until after the fact) and we gave her some formula the first two nights she was at home because my milk didn't come in yet and Chloe was crying a LOT. and the nurses warned us that she might get jaundice if she didn't get more to eat and our confinement nanny basically told us we were starving our baby.  but this is really her first real bottle of formula that i'm giving to her willingly and happily.  I have so many thoughts to share about breastfeeding that I'll save for another post. But through all the challenges of breastfeeding Chloe, I wouldn't have traded that experience for anything.   Every time I nurse her now, I'm not sure if it'll be the last time and that makes me really sad because I enjoy those moments with her so much when it's just the two of us and I can provide her with something that she needs.  It hurt me so much all those times that she cried when I tried to nurse her or aggressively pushed me away and I felt so selfish for making her nurse when she really didn't want to. Yet it made me so thankful when she would find comfort when nursing with me.

My baby really is growing up! She took her first formula without any problems and even flashed a really big smile at the end! And I'm one step closer to ending our breastfeeding relationship, filled with mixed emotions.